I'm very lucky to have an amazing therapist (she doesn't have authority to prescribe drugs) who is always giving me new perspectives, seems to understand me literally better than anyone else has with this hard time i'm going through, and always recommends calming techniques (breathing, relaxing muscles, yoga etc). She's really big into that stuff. But she got really concerned (and rightfully so) when she heard what was happening lately and recommended maybe speaking with my doctor about some anti-anxiety options. Problem is these anxiety attacks are so overwhelming and sometimes last so long, that it's hard to even see them passing and that brings some very bad thoughts to mind. So really i'm just looking for something to get through those moments only - not to take on a regular basis.Beerbabe do you feel like your therapist is really helping you? Sometimes anxiety gets worse before it gets better but try to evaluate whether you are making progress and getting insight and behavioural things to do from them, they should be focused on helping you prevent your anxiety from further restricting your life and managing your triggers and stress levels. I say this because I saw a psychiatrist for a long time who got me on SSRI's but never really helped me manage my anxiety in any other way (their solution was to keep upping my dosage if I continued to have panic attacks, I had terrible side effects and it took me forever to get myself off of them). Now that I've seen someone who was more effective (a psychologist) I'm just mad that I stayed with the other person for so long. Paying for a good psychologist is so worth it in my opinion.
I have had anxiety issues and panic attacks and I think part of why I overcame them was I continued to white knuckle through the panic attacks and didn't avoid situations that made me anxious as much as I could stand, and obviously I also did the other work associated with anxiety disorders - stress management, breathing, exercise, and so on. Walking around having panic attacks sucked, but I knew if I avoided situations out of fear it would keep snowballing and I'd be stuck at home feeling bad. Now I'm at a place where I have some anticipatory anxiety but I don't have panic attacks, and I'm working to reduce that anticipatory anxiety to the same level as what any 'normal' person would have in those same situations.
Trying to be a fighter here and not drown in all this. Not always easy. But i really appreciate what you said about fighting through the panic attacks and anxiety. Maybe i'll be strong enough a litte more down the road to try that, i just don't think i can right now.