I hear you. I'm going through the same thing.. I'm trying to surround myself with positive/supportive people and remove the toxic people. I have a lot of "Frienemies" and i don't really trust a lot of people anymore. I used to hang out with a dysfunctional group. They would be smiles to your face, but then to everyone else would bitch about you. I've always questioned my friendship with them..This has been a really hard year and a half for me. It's been filled with confusion, heartbreak, pain, lies and deception. I have also had to come to terms with the fact that I spent five years on a path that in the end was all a big mistake (not that I didn't learn anything from it, but the experience outweighed the lesson). I should have trusted my gut instincts all along, but stupidly didn't. I don't know how to come to terms with all of it. It's been soul crushing. I've lost faith in people being good, kind and trustworthy. I feel like I've been betrayed completely and I don't know how to recover from it.
Anyone have any advice on how to pick up and get through something like this? I know i'm not being very specific about my situation, but looking for any general ideas.
I was thinking to go see a therapist and get some professional help. It's been way too overwhelming for me and have been having a great deal of trouble looking forward.
If anyone has some words of advice, it would be really appreciated.
Friday i ended up having a panic attack as well. I've only had 3 in my life.. It's really frustrating. I get stressed out really easily. If people cause me to stress out then I will avoid situations and just block them out of my life except if i'm forced into a sitatuion that I do not feel comfortable in, i will start having anxiety which happened friday and it escalated. Now i'm really freaking embarrassed.
I have a friend who has been trying to get me to see a therapist for almost a month.
I need to start getting control of my life and starting living/being happy again.