I've decided to ramble, and undoubtedly reveal more of myself than I have in a long time. Its 5 am and I'm probably going crazy from sleep deprivation, although I can't sleep...damn insomnia.
I have so much to say, so many things flowing through my mind, that I thought it was time for another random musings from a confused mind in the way it was originally cast; as just a ramble, with no desire for responses (although they're always nice), and no real point but of course without a theme it'd be pointless!! (oh how I make myself laugh sometimes)
For the majority of tonight, I've sat here with this crawling under my skin, as if my something inside me is screaming to be let out, grasping for something unknown.
Then it hit me. I feel too normal. Why is it that feeling normal makes my skin crawl. I know that I want to be exceptional, do something special, but then again Im still a kid in a 20 year olds body...thinking that life should mean more than 9-5 workdays and what kind of car I can afford. But really is being in school going to change that? I highly doubt it...
It's not that I'm unhappy. I'm happier now than I have been in a long time..I'm just unsatisfied and no amount of masturbation can fix it!
Maybe spirituality is the answer...or maybe I'm just insane.
I have so much to say, so many things flowing through my mind, that I thought it was time for another random musings from a confused mind in the way it was originally cast; as just a ramble, with no desire for responses (although they're always nice), and no real point but of course without a theme it'd be pointless!! (oh how I make myself laugh sometimes)
For the majority of tonight, I've sat here with this crawling under my skin, as if my something inside me is screaming to be let out, grasping for something unknown.
Then it hit me. I feel too normal. Why is it that feeling normal makes my skin crawl. I know that I want to be exceptional, do something special, but then again Im still a kid in a 20 year olds body...thinking that life should mean more than 9-5 workdays and what kind of car I can afford. But really is being in school going to change that? I highly doubt it...
It's not that I'm unhappy. I'm happier now than I have been in a long time..I'm just unsatisfied and no amount of masturbation can fix it!
Maybe spirituality is the answer...or maybe I'm just insane.
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