Originally posted by SUNKIST
i didnt drop out, but i did take a year off.
i hated my school (and still do a little bit, u of t) i felt so isolated, my course was fucking donkey work, with all those idiot gap ad kids whoes parents paid their tuition, spouting their mouths off about nothing just to be the teachers pet.
i was actually really excited to move out of a small town and getting some sort of higher education (highschool was a joke for me). so i majored in philosophy and english (my beef is with philosophy) expecting to get some new ideas, brainstorm differnt theories, actually start to feel like some sort of intellect-or at the very least, feel satsified with the thousands i was spending on school.
in the end, i found out there was little to no room for independant thinking (suprising considering thats what philosophy is all about-radical thoughts, carefully thought through, and applied to life-or thats how i took it anyways) all essays i wrote that stated and examined one philosophers thoughts, and if i dared to say i didint agree with it, or offer a spin on the idea i always got shitty marks. even if i got a 65-70%, i was happy with it, considering the conformity i was seeing people accept just to get a fucking B. i'd rather accept a C with independant thought than a mundane, run of the mill text book example of an A.
and in the end the people who were cleaning up were those damn gap preppies, regergitating the teachers and T.A.'s notes to a T, not offering any independant thought of their own. it pissed me off so much, that i was made to feel stupid,(not in so many words of course, but figurativly speaking) at the least i was getting fucking shit grades cuz i tried to take a different angle on things.
anywayyyyyssssss..haha. can you tell i'm bitter? maybe i DID have it all wrong, maybe i did write sub par stuff,maybe i didnt agree with the text, but it was original, and i was happy with it.
anyways, long story short, taking this year off, collecting my thoughts, deciding whats best for me, what i'm really compassioante about, and i'm starting again in september. small price to pay seening as the alternative is being stuck in a program, and mode of thinking i fucking hated.
if anyone actually read all that-and even made sense of it..i give you a gold star. school is one thing i could bitch about forever..
WOW, you & stargurl* just made me feel so much better about my own messy life at the moment- I'm a fourth yr. English major @ UofT- the school and program i have always chosen to be in, but during the past semester it felt like such a pointless endeavour.
WOW, i think this has been a bit to much trauma (drama?), when i think i could probably have used (and will take!) a year off. Thanx- a LOT.